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Return to my old stalking grounds [06 Nov 2006|12:46pm]
So I havent forgotten about my LJ. Xanga has just sucked me in.

Todd and I are still dating, today, in fact, is our 14 month anniversary ^_^

A lot of things have been going on lately...such as starting a job that I already hate, trying to stay afloat school wise, and making time for my wonderful man. If you don't already know where I work, I'm not telling because I don't want extra visitors XD Besides, not staying there past Christmas. Hell, not staying there past this month if I can find something else.

Anyway, I don't really know what prompted me to update here O_o Mainly because anyone who's read my entries since the beginning will notice I've changed a great deal. Just in tone, but still changed. No one, in truth, is honestly here anymore and I refuse to move yet again to myspace.

I've thought about making another LJ...one that I will not post about or make obvious that it is mine. Partly for fun and to see how many people care to find it. Partly because there are sometimes things I need to rant about without actually ranting to anyone. Just a "to hear myself talk" kind of feeling I suppose.

Reguardless if it falls through or not, it's time for class for me. *snarls* I hate this class suddenly, for some reason. Probably that paper I had to write for it yesterday...*stalks away*
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Why must people suck? [04 Apr 2006|11:32am]
Let me clarify first and foremost....not everyone sucks nor do I hate anyone (save one individual whom will for the time being remain unnamed.) Also let me clarify that this is has little to do with my personal life, but much to do in the life of one of my dearest friends, so if anyone reads this anymore, no "feel better, hun" notes please.

Disclaimers out of the way, back to my title. I know not every relationship is meant to last and some that seem like they should last do not. This is a natural course of nature and human whim. Little can be done about nature, it is human whim that bothers me greatly and raises the question "how can you claim to fall out of love while you are setting up a rebound?"

Now, let me plead my case. Human nature is indeed fickle and, well, some people get 'bored' easily. This, while regretable, happens. However, it makes absolutely no sense that people should be conciously setting up a rebound while still dating. It also makes no sense to spring their unhappiness all at once while never breathing a word of the fact that they are falling out of love to the person who faithfully wears and cherishes your promise ring. This is NOT a realtionship and should not have been allowed to remain. This is NOT nor WAS IT love, it was a fantasy in your mind if you can't even talk to your significant other about it, but instead are able to comfortably tell her best friend that the relationship has no future months in advance. Stop taking the cowards way out or you will NEVER amount to anything but a serpent crawling the Earth on your belly, just looking for the next 'rock' to take shelter under from your own life.

Terrible metaphor, I realize, but I'm rambling so go with it.

This person I am writing about, this absolute bastard of a boy (that is right, you are a mere BOY...and at this rate you will never be a MAN) has only been referred to as a snake because I have watched him work and from what I have seen, he takes shelter under people, away from his own problems as long as he has someone to hid behind and take on his problems for him. I have news for you, life is not easy nor are healthy relationships...and if your only reason for taking them on is shelter and to make yourself fell secure in your future, there are many pitfalls in your path when everyone can finally see the slime drenched, blind interior beneath your "handsome" appearance.

Yes, I am rambling out of anger that is not my own...it is the curse of a loyal friend. I ramble from what I have seen and speak the hurt for the one who yet cannot. This child she has cared for in the past 2 years, this infant boy she has sheltered, left her with absolutely nothing in return but a broken heart and shattered dreams. Many of you may have no idea what it feels like, I know of it but not to this degree and I pray to God that I will never have to face these same things she has.

To whom I write about, I have a note for you specifically-- I hope something draws you to read this. I hope you see the bastard you have become and face every ounce of pain you have given to your once significant other. I hope that this new girl of yours sees the bastard you are before she too has been your shelter for far too long. I hope you feel remorse and I hope you see her face in everyone elses features, I hope you still dream about her and it drives you mad. I wish upon you every ounce of fear and insecurity you have unfairly dealt. I will help her be strong through this and I will make sure that you do not get one damn thing over what is yours. All those luxuries she gave to you, the game consoles, everything she got out of love will return to her possession, I will see to it. I hope you realize how much she has given to you and miss every article, every token of her love and appreciation for you and I hope you feel worthless.

On a closing note to readers-- Take this however you want. I realize the link is still in my aim, so people who have no idea what is going on are bound to read this. These are things I could not plainly state for all to hear, I required somewhere to have it written down. As for the anger expressed, I deeply apologize if my rage has been turned on you, it was not meant.

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[03 Oct 2005|12:09pm]
Your anime hair color is...WHITE!! You're very
friendly. You are innocent but you aren't
afraid to speak your mind...or at least without
words, just expressions.

What's You're Anime Hair Color?
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Purple -> You're shy and sweet. You'd be a perfect
anime character for a fantasy manga! You have
enough friends, but you don't talk enough to
fit in perfectly. Lighten up and say
something! Don't worry, everybody will still
love you. Plus, you're brave deep down.

What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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Hmm, white hair and purple eyes....interesting.
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Not much [20 Sep 2005|08:34pm]
Hey all my lj people, long time since I've actually posted on here.

Quick recap...been going ot OVU for about 2 months now and I think I'm surviving ok. Some classes are really sucking and I don't think I'm doing the greatest in them...but hey, that's school for ya.

I had my wisdom teeth cut out this past weekend and my mouth still kinda hurt, but everythings just dandy. Especially on my perscribed pain medicine...I might as well be what I assume drunk would feel like. Can't even stand or walk with that stuff. Glad I don't need it anymore though.

Let's see....my dorm is awesome thanks to Katie's poster donation, and my roommate is pretty cool. It takes a lot to get used to living with someone else when you're used to being the only child and not having to share stuff. But I think I've managed well. We haven't killed each other yet, so it's a start.

Found a guy who I've happily declared "my boy" at college too. His name is Todd and he's proudly a geek. But the bottom line is he's a big sweetheart and completely awesome.

EWN PEOPLE- I'm back! New AIM sn is chaosmoonbane incase you ever want to rp. I'm online a lot in the evenings, so hopefully I can get Tamil more wrapped up in some of the story lines.

And I think that's it. Til next time!

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Go my quizzes....ATTACK!!! [07 Sep 2005|08:29pm]
Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

Your Hidden Talent
You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.
You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.
People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.
When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

You Are a Rottweiler Puppy

Powerful, smart, and protective.
You're eager to growl at anyone you hate - but you're a big sweetheart inside.

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

Your Life Path Number Is 9


The keys your Life Path are compassion, generosity, and a very humanitarian attitude.

You are very trustworthy, honorable, and unlikely to harbor any sort of prejudice.

Obviously, this is a rather tall order, but you are, in fact, a person that feels very deeply for individuals less fortunate than yourself.

If you are in a position to help, you certainly will.

You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling and compassion.

The 9, being the highest of the single digit numbers, holds an elevated position and poses certain responsibilities.

Your purpose of life is of a philosophical nature.

Judges, spiritual leaders, healers and educators frequently have much 9 energy.

Material gains are not overly important to you.

You have a very selfless attitude and will give up of material possessions for the common good.

he desire to help others, especially the troubled or underprivileged, is strong.

You are apt to frequently find yourself being used and let down by others, as your generosity is misused and abused.

Your very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields.

Here you may be able to express your deep emotional feelings through painting, writing, music, or other art forms.

Often, however, there if a great deal of difficulty finding a suitable outlet for the your Life Path.

You are usually well suited to the helping and healing professions... but less inclined to the competitive business environment.

You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality.

You have a special gift of understanding people, which if used correctly can be of great benefit to others.

Your interest in people tends to make you quite social.

People just naturally like you because you are so sympathetic, tolerant and broad-minded.

In many ways, you are a romantic that can get lost in your loves and passions.

Relationships can be difficult for you, however, because it is hard to strike a balance that will work effectively.

If your partner is one sharing your giving attitudes, the relationship will be happy and lasting.

On the other hand, if you choose a partner whose focus is on material issues, problems will arise quickly.

As do all the life path numbers, the 9 has its negative side, and because of the demanding nature of the truly positive 9, many tend to fail in this category.

It is not uncommon for persons with the 9 life path to fight the realities and challenges of purpose imposed... because selflessness is not an easy trait.

You may have difficulty believing that giving and a lack of personal ambition can be satisfying.

You must accept that little long-term satisfaction and happiness is to be gained by rejecting the natural humanitarian inclinations of your path.

You Have Good Karma

In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.

Your caring personality really shines through.

Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.

But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

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EWN [17 Aug 2005|11:05am]
[ mood | awake ]

Hey, I got a xanga under the same name.

Ok, I have my laptop and I'll be downloading AIM either tonight or tomorrow, so Tamil will be back within a few days.

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HEY! [09 Jun 2005|09:12am]
[ mood | rushed ]

Yes, I'll be back from time to time while I'm at work.

I hope to have my new laptop in about a month or so...so just hang in there!


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So.... [15 Mar 2005|08:28am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

My computer is still crap, and so here I am waiting for 1st block to start again when I should be working on stamps for AP English. Oops. *evil grin*

Anyway, nothihng to new. Chayn stayed over at my house all weekend, and that was fun. And this weekend, Derek swears up and down that he's going to steal me. Sometime this week I've got to find some AP time...and some regular Chaos time. Blah O.o Too much going on. I'm beginning to severely dislike this senior stuff. Odd as it is for me, I want out of here so bad. I've become the biggest procrastinator I know, and that's bad. I even beat out Derek in that category now and that's just now supposed to happen.

Anyway, can't type on here for too long. Howl at you guys later.


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Blah [09 Mar 2005|01:28pm]
[ mood | calm ]

OK, unless anyone knows what a repository file is, what it's doing to my computer, and how I can get rid of it, i won't be updating this for a long time.

No real time to update, so I'll go back to my 3rd block back massage now...

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Finally! [28 Feb 2005|08:25am]
[ mood | chipper ]

So, I've been grounded for a week for my cell phone dying basically. As gay as that is, I finally have the phone and internet back!

Alright, updates on stuff.

Winterfest was awesome. For those who don't know what it is, it's a giant youth rally held in Tennessee, and this year there were nearly 20,000 present. They had us split into groups because the theatre thing it was held in couldn't hold that many, so the early session (the one my youth group was in) had about 10,000 in it. The most awesome thing about this was singing. Ever heard 10,000 people sing, unaccompanied by lead voices? It's awesome.

The speaker, Jeff, was great too. He had humor to his message, and that made it even more worth listening to.

They had a concert there to. Newsboys, I think was the band. Chayn, Loki, and I got in the back of the "pit", right in front of the band as we followed a bouncing group. Oh course, once you get into a bouncing frenzy, it's bounce or be trampled. But it was so great. Chayn and I even had our first encounter with a crowd surfer, by which I mean we had one dropped behind us and he ended up taking both of us down with him. But still, that was funny.

The night we got to spend roaming around the town was maybe the best. We went up on a sky lift, which suspended us over a main road for a brief period of time (in which Anna and I began calling people on our cells to tell them we were hanging over a road. Voice reactions were priceless). The view from the top was breathtaking, since it was at night and you could see every light in the city. It was beautiful.

Then we went to the bear factory and made bears. Well, I made a tiger named Rakkel (and it's a GUY....and not pronouced Rachel! Rack-el) Angie made a moose, Anna made a dog, Katie, Beckha, Loki, and Zach made bears. During my wait for everyone else to finish their bears, Jeremy called my cell phone and asked me out. So, we've been happily attached to eachother for a week and 2 days ^.^

Erm....I've been spending most of my spare time at Jeremy's, since we are still getting to know eachother, and I'm sorry to everyone who desires my time. Just tell me that it's your turn to have an evening, and I'll make it happen.

Well, AP is starting, must go.

P.S.-- Heart of Darkness is the DEVIL


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The King of all Quizzes! [13 Feb 2005|06:17pm]
[ mood | energetic ]

Everything Anyone Ever Wanted To Know About You

Created by LaBelleAmie and taken 7277 times on bzoink!

The Basic Stuff
Weight?*shrugs* what the heck....125. I know...I'm a stick...
Birthday?May 15, 1987
Birthplace?St. Joseph's Hospital in Parkersburg
Current Location?Belleville
Zodiac Sign?Taurus
Chinese Zodiac Sign?Rabbit
Righty or Lefty?righty
Haircolor?naturally brown, right now red fading into orange
Eyecolor?blue/green, blue, or green...it depends
Skin Color?fading tan?
About You
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?mom, dad
Any Pets?yes
If So What Are They?3 cats (*sniffle* I miss my Zoster so bad....) and 1 dog
Favorite Relative?erm..."The Girls"- Anna, Emily and Abigal, my 3 little cousins
Least Favorite Relative?Uncle Larry and Uncle Byron...they annoy me to no end
What's Your Heritage/Race?mostly Irish, little Scottish, and a pinch of German
Political Affilation?none, I hate politics
Love & Sex
Are You In A Relationship Now?no, unfortunatly
If So, With Whom?n/a
For How Long?n/a
Are You In Love?possibly...
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?yup
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?nope
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?the first peck on the lips was at like 12, first REAL kiss was at 16.
Virgin?yes and proudly so
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?n/a
Was It Enjoyable?n/a
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?making out
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?O.o You except me to know this how...? As of right now, lips or cheek or hand are just fine thanks
Best Love Quote?I don't have one
Your Friends
Best?oh boy....Angie, Stacey, Katie, Joey and Derek are all my best friends, lol
How Many Do You Have?more than I can count
More Guys Or Girls?more girls, but I've gained a lot of guy friends over the past few months, so it's almost even now O.o
Love Them All?of course!
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?yeah
Newest?*thinks* Jeremy Freed
Pen Pal?nope
Friends And Words: Associate Them
This Or That
Boxers or Briefs?boxers
Thongs or G-Strings?thong
Shorts or Pants?pants...I hate my legs
Shoes or Barefeet?barefeet
Books or Movies?movies
Night or Day?night
Dark or Light?dark
Mountains or Beach?mountains
Snow or Sun?snow
Pepsi or Coke?neither, I hate dark pop
Guys or Girls?...depends. Hanging out to shop, girls. Relationship stuff, guys
Swim or Surf?swim
For or Against
Gay Marriage?not too sure
Abortion?it's a personal choice, but I'm against it
Bush Getting Re-elected?don't care
Suicide?O.O against
Pants?....what kind of question is this? I'm against them if your in a tropical location cause that's just silly
Clothes In General?for
Color?(s) black, red, and silver
Number?(s) 2 and/or 7
Season?generally spring/fall
Movie?At the moment it's Almost Famous
Book?erm, don't really know. Wolfile right now
Magazine?Rolling Stone
Drink?anything Mountain Dew
TV Show?Teen Titans
Song?"American Idiot"- GreenDay and/or "Sooner or Later"- Breaking Benjamin
Band?Disturbed, Breaking Benjamin, Greenday, Nightwish, Story of the Year, Flogging Molly, Evanescense, Smile Empty Soul and that's all I can think of right now
Computer Game?none
Video Game?DDR
Anime/Manga?Wolf's Rain
Shirt?My NBC shirts
Pants?anything Tripp makes
Actor?Orlando Bloom or Johnny Depp
Actress?um...not real sure.
Singer?Amy Lee
Scent?Bath and Body Works- Sweet Pea////Victoria's Secret- Love Spell
Cookie?any cookie is a good cookie
The Future
Want To Go To College?yes
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?a writer
Want To Get Married?yes
Want To Have Kids?not particulary
What Would Their Names Be?Chantelisa Lanett(g) Haven Lee(m)
How Many?preferrably none O.o but if I did have any, 1
Where Do You Want To Live?somewhere where I can own land, part of it forested so I can walk around in the woods
Where Do You Want To Get Married?it doesn't matter, somewhere close to my family
How Do You Want To Die? in my sleep
More Stuff About You
Piercings?none, the bug the begeezus out of me. But I like them on other people
Tattoos?want on
Smoke?ick, no
Do Drugs?Ewww, no
Skinny Dip?erm, no.
Greatest Fear?failure...spiders might just beat that one though
Chocolate or Vanilla?vanilla
Go To Church?yes
Scars?all over the place...on my forehead I have a horseshoe shaped scar, one on my cheek from a dog bite, on the back of my leg from finding an underwater log
CDs Owned?WAY too many to list
Collections?dragons, NBC, cd's, Tim Burton movies
Like To Be Naked?...only when I'm taking a bath/shower
Ever Eaten Sushi?ew! no!
An Entire Case Of Oreos?almost...lol
Been On Stage?in 4th grade
Danced In The Rain?yes!
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?hell no! *cringe* *gag*
Weirdest Dream?that guys in scooter were going around in a cirlce going "Melon Hunting" O.o Don't even ask...cause I don't know
Best Dream?going to Hawaii
Saddest Dream?seeing my cat Zoe, who's dead, and in my dreams he's come back to life (think Pet Cemetary) and I'm afraid to hug him
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?finding my soulmate
Think You're Attractive?yes, but not as much as everyone else seems to
Been Caught "Doing Something"?no
Weirdest Makeout Place?the basement of a dentist office.
Like Thunderstorms?like the storms, hate the thunder
Favorite Shoes?sketchers
Favorite Quote?don't have one
Best Advice Given?follow your heart, it knows what it's doing.
Worst Advice Given?just go for it!
Favorite Song Lyric?"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut, my weakness is, that I care too much."- Papa Roach- "scars"
What Quote Says Most About Your Life?"I'm so tired of being here, supressed by all my childish fears"
Glad This Is Over?not really, that was fun

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One Last Quiz before Happy S.A.D.... [13 Feb 2005|11:12am]
[ mood | blank ]

The Goddess of Water and Anger. You are a reclusive
loner . Always wary and deliberate, once youve
got a friendship, its for life and you are
exceptionally considerate. You are a serene

Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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You like the trouble making types.

What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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Here we go again [12 Feb 2005|08:57pm]
[ mood | still creative ]

1.First name?
Jillian Lee

2. Were you named after anyone?
Umm,I wasn't names after anyone. But I was named by my grandmother more or less...because my original name was supposed to be Paige, but she refused to call her only granddaughter 'Paige', so Jillian I became.

3. Do you wish on stars?
Duh, what else are you supposed to do when you stargaze?

4. When did you last cry?
Yesterday evening at the end of my 36 hour emotional breakdown.

5. Do you like your handwriting?
Nope. I actually hate it a lot.

6. What's your favorite lunch meat?
any kinda bird that you raise on a farm. Lol

7. What is your birth date?
May 15, 1987

8. What is your most embarrassing CD?
Aqua and an M2M single

9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
of course!

10. Are you a daredevil?
What are you talking about? I'm a chicken...

12. Do looks matter?
*sigh* to a certain extent they do whether they need to or not

13. How do you release anger?
through poetry and screaming at the sky

14. Where is your second home?
Angie's house

15. Do you trust others easily?
It usually takes me forever before I will trust someone completely.

16. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Um...I don't really remember having a favorite. I did play with those little plastic dinosaurs though...lol

17. Which class in high school do you think is/was totally stupid?
Environmental Earth Sciences! ROCKS!!! I don't care what grain they have or when they were formed or what they were formed from! They're ROCKS!!! oh, and Crafts sucks too.

18. Do you have a journal?
A Nightmare Before Christmas one that I hand write in. And what do you htink I'm posting this on, hmmm?

19. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Indeed I do

20. What are your nicknames?
Jill, Jilly, Jilly Bean, Chaos, Hecate, Lemur

21. Would you bungee jump?
Depends on my mood. If I was being all non-outgoing, someone would have to do it with me and do the jumping part. If I was outgoing and daring that particular moment, someone would have to go with me still, but I think I could jump...

22. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
I just slip them off. Then I have to untie them to put them on the next morning, so it kinda defeats the whole purpose.

23. Do you think that you are strong?
Physically, not really...toned, but not strong. Mentally, however, I am strong. I take a lot of crap from people without exploding, and if that isn't strength then I don't know what is.

24. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Mint Chocolate Chip or Cookie Dough

25. Shoe size?

26. Red or pink?

27. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
My shyness and skin

28. Who do you miss most?
I don't know...the only people I really have to miss are Jake and Evan.

29. Do you want everyone to whom you send this to send it back?
Don't care, if you're bored then feel free

30. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?
....what if I'm not wearing pants O.o

Chill, I have a robe on...sick minds XP lol

31. What are you listening to right now?
radio and the computer humming

32. Last thing you ate?
Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream...oh the irony.

33. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Black or Cerulean( my favorite crayon box shade of blue)

34. What is the weather like right now?

35. Last person you talked to on the phone?
omg, Cody Stout. I want to kill him....must kill, must kill.....

36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
I try to find out some stuff about their personality, but I notice eyes, smile, and sometimes arms if they're built.

37. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
hehe, I stole this from Katie who stole it from someone else. Someone neds to steal it from me now to keep the chain going...

38. What is your ethnicity?
Mostly Irish with a little Scottish and a pinch of German.

39. Favorite drink?
Anything Mountian Dew

40. Favorite sport?
none really. Getting into pro wrestling, thanks to Katie.

41. Hair color?
Naturally copper brown, right now maroon fading into orange/blonde at the base. Note that this isn't my fault, the dye is screwing with my natural color.

42. Eye color?
Depends on my mood. Either blue/green, all jade green or all pale blue.

43. Do you wear contacts?

44. Are you single?

45. Favorite food?
Hey, food is food, but tacos are the best

46. Last movie you watched?
Well, an old Disney movie. Lol. I'm reliving childhood, leave me alone...

47. Favorite day of the year?
Hallows Eve!

48. Scary movies or happy endings?
Both...but not in the same movie

49. Summer or winter?
erm...everything in between?

50. Hugs or kisses?
Hugs. Kisses are ok, but considering I have no significant other, yeah.

51. Do you have any favorite rants and, if so, what are they?
Human Stupidity and my daily life. Lol

52. What is your favorite dessert?
Hey, dessert is wonderful. It's ALL good!

53. Who is most likely to respond?
Erm, nope

54. Who is most likely not to respond?
*stares at ceiling looking rather amused*

55. What books are you reading?
Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad, for English. GAH!

56. What's on your mouse pad?
Erm...is you mean what is on top of it, my mouse. Printed on it are two lab puppies in a basket.

57. What did you watch last night on TV?

58. Favorite smells?
Bath and Body Works- Sweet Pea
Victoria's Secret- Love Spell

59. Favorite sounds?
my Bigg's meow

60. Rolling Stones or Beatles?
neither, actually

61. What's the farthest you've been from home?
Flordia (Jake- oops, I forgot about spring break last year O.o)

62. Do you have a special talent?
I've been told I'm an excellent writer...though really and truely I suck. And I'm getting pretty good at DDR.

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OMG.... [12 Feb 2005|08:49pm]
[ mood | creative ]

How pathetic am I? Going to EHarmony.com to get a Personality Profile. Well, after about an hour of carefully answering 12 sections all about me, here are my wonderful results....

·You prefer to wait until you're sure of your ground before acting. This might mean after several visits to a new place, or after a few meetings with a new person, you will feel more open to risk or share trust.

·You prefer not to seek quick personal relationships, but rather build relationships slowly. Once your relationships are formed, they tend to be lasting.

·You may not jump in immediately for a new idea or activity. You may need time to consider all aspects of the idea before supporting it with time and talent.

·You function best in an environment relatively free of conflict or hostility. When tension mounts, you may become silent; and if tension continues, you may withdraw or avoid the situation altogether.

·You tend to think before you act. As a result, the things you do will be purposeful and deliberate.

·You will generally not act impulsively. As a result, others around you may perceive a slowness of thought or action. This results not from slow thinking, but from complete analysis of the situation before acting.

*You usually communicate with others in a reserved, diplomatic and congenial fashion.

*You are a careful and analytic listener who will generally not offer ideas or opinions unless asked.

*You will convey patience towards others in most situations. This patience comes from a need to maintain harmony. Others may read this as a strong stabilizing factor in your behavior.

*Because you may not call attention to your own accomplishments, you may benefit from others giving recognition to you occasionally. Constant recognition may make you feel uncomfortable.

*When asked about your opinions, you may not share your ideas or opinions openly with those asking. You remain rather self-contained in social situations. Some may perceive you as aloof, but it's really caution.

*You may be a steadying influence because of your restrained and unassuming way.

*You usually wait to be asked your opinion rather than offering an opinion.

*You dislike having to initiate new relationships. However, others may seek you out because you are a good listener, quiet and nonthreatening.

*Your strength is to bring stability, security and awareness of consequences to activities. In a sense, you may be considered as the one with the "conscience."

Communication Styles-
·Work to achieve mutual satisfaction.

·Listen sincerely.

·Present ideas softly, nonthreateningly.

·Start with a personal comment to "break the ice."

·If you agree, follow through with your end of the agreement.

·Move casually, informally.

·Ask "How" questions to draw out opinions.

·Use a thoughtful approach.

·Patiently draw out personal interests.

·Provide personal support and assurance.

Personal Strength/Characteristics-
·You are generally very patient with people.

·You are good at helping others people to reach their goals.

·You are good at reconciling (i.e. you don't like to sulk after a conflict is resolved).

·You take pride in being very loyal to friends and family.

·You are very supportive of other people.

·You tend to be a very calming influence in heated situations.

·You are a dependable and caring partner.

·You are skilled at being diplomatic with people in all settings.

·You are very sincere in actions and words.

·You tend to work hard at making sure that other people are happy.

Emotional Wants-
·A support system to help you get things done.

·An environment free from conflict or hostility.

·An audience to perform to and entertain.

·Support of your ideas and dreams.

·Security for now, and in the future.

·Recognition of skills and ability.

·A friendly, favorable social environment.

·Sound relationships which form naturally, and are not contriving or scheming.

·Acceptance in a variety of groups.

·Social recognition of your accomplishments.

·Partners who practice listening and participation.

All in all, they fit rather nicely be it good or bad.

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Pre-Happy S.A.D. quizzes [12 Feb 2005|03:09pm]
[ mood | amused ]

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Your Seduction Style: The Coquette
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You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get.
Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you.
Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte.
And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

Lol, this is me to a tee.

Taurus Kissing Horoscope

Your kisses linger; they are deliberate, heartfelt and they can go on and on and on…

Your Relationship Potential: It could be a fun fling, or it could be the love of your life. Sample your free reading for more details.

Horoscopes for Kissing? Interesting...

Best Line to Pick Up a Taurus With

I just had to come talk with you. Sweetness is my weakness.

Discover your ideal love with a sample Intimacy Essentials Reading -- free!

Lol, this is just funny.

You Are A Romantic Realist

You are more romantic than 40% of the population.

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends!

I think this is just about right too.

Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait

How Do Men See You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

I really am choosy. Bravo, Yournewromance Quiz, bravo.

You are White Chocolate

You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in.
Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you.
You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Man, I LOVE chocolate covered strawberries...so I like this result. Haha.
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Not too much [06 Feb 2005|08:17pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yup...not too much has been going on.

Katie and I went and watched NWA wrrestling Saturday, and that's been the biggest highlight for a while.

Finally making slight progress in revamping my characters. The revamped versions have went from a page of info to three or more pages of info to insure that I can keep the characters even through writers block. And I have to do this for 6 more characters. In short...I'm going to die a slow, headache induced death O.o

I'm in a rather lycan-esce mood. Just out of no where. It's rather strange. Too bad I'm in the middle of a wrestling rp so I can't go roam outside.

Other than that, I'm bored and tired. Sleeping in sounds good...too bad I can't. Stupid school...needs to go away.

Well, erm...that's really it. Lol


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Senior Pics!!! [03 Feb 2005|04:20pm]
YAY! SOme of my senior pics are finally up on Cathy's website! Click this: http://www.cathyfreed.com/jill.htm to go see them.

Note to EWN members...this is what Tamil looks like in high school for Kat's Darryn story :)
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Wasting Time [28 Jan 2005|09:17pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Lol, that I am.

I'm getting tired of revamping characters...none of which have been completely revamped yet. So their just kinda human shaped shells...and only up to their ankles is filled in with new personality. I have their basics down though...via handy little sentences that start out as such: "*Insert character name here* is the kind of person who would (or would never)..." I heart those sentences big time. Xander will be the most fun to revamp...I have around 20 sentences like that for him while I only have about 5-10 for every other character. Xander is just so random and fearless...you gotta love him. Well, I gotta love him anyway. My lead male character (and the main character overall) is the one I'm most worried about. He's the only one who's heart and values are going to change...and in the first version of chapters 1-5 I let him change to fast. See, the way I write stories, I try to let the characters just do whatever they like...kinda like I'm watching some microscopic world through binoculars and writing down the inhabitants daily dramas. But my main guy wanted to make himself change too fast. So I have to add some kinda flaw into him to keep that from happening. Problem is...I'm not sure what quite yet. Oh well, I'll figure it out.

So anyway, senior pics are tomorrow and I need beauty sleep because I just do. Lol...I hate my face. Off topic...right. Anyway, going to finish up these sentences I've been working on and head off to bed. So to everyone else, goodnight!


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And the winner is..... [28 Jan 2005|06:18pm]
[ mood | creative ]


Yes folks, I won the bet. And the $50.

New Guy Comments- a whooping 0!

Friends Comments- guessing somewhere in the 70's or higher. But they didn't count, but thanks for the support guys :) You all know I love you.

And that's really all I feel like typing right now. My stomach is barking at me and I'm in the middle of re-vamping characters from my book I'm working on...and revamping the book itself. So, until later...tata!


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Semester Change...here I come [25 Jan 2005|06:50pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]

Blah, semesters about to change. Here's the run down...

1a- nothing (YES!)
1b- AP English (still...)
2- Business Management
3- Economics
4- Crafts

Yeah...exciting stuff.

***Clothing Crisis Update***
since we had an unplanned 4 day weekend, I now have to be 'colorful and preppy' until Thursday. *sigh*

Anyway...today I wore a pair of blue jeans with yellow/green faded patches...a yellow/green checkered belt, and a green top that tied at the neck. As jewelry, I had a cream colored beaded flower choker.

New Guy Comments- 0 still. I'm on a roll. Muahaha

Regular Comments- around 15 or 20, winding down in this area as well.

Anyway, tomorrow shall be sad. I think I'm gonna bring my camera and take loads of picks for the heck of it. Maybe. I don't know...I can never remember to take pictures when I have a camera. Lol.

Nothing too much else that's new other than that. So until tomorrow...bye!


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